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2009-07-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

THERE GOES MY WEEKENDS!
well well spend weekends man!
managed to meet good buddies and dance peeps!

booked out at 8pm on friday!
cabbed home reached around 915!
slack n chatted with my mum n grandpa abt the life there!
den unpacked my dirty stuffs for laundry den off to rest a while!
den washed up n drove out to airport!

met YONG! for supper!
we took like an hour plus goin in circles finding the place to eat our DIM SUM!
finally managed to find n settled down and ORDERED like freaking alot of food!
chatted really alot n eat until freaking full!
sent him backed home den me off home around 2am!!
THANKS FOR THE TREAT!!!!

SATURDAY!
wen to mum's shop to eat some light food n catch up with the aunties there,
den drove to town n met the BITCHES for buffet at ceneileisure!!!
had good n bad sushi! lolx
we ordered like nobody business until we cant eat!
lolx
had a good time catching up n laughing our asses off!
den drove to OSCHOOL to find RYAN! had a short chat den i went off fetch mum from work but i was late n she took cab so went shopping for snacks instead!
den wen car wash n refill petrol!

got home n rested awhile den met MING JIANG for movie at CENEI!
caught HARRY POTTER!
i m kind of fan of harry potter but the movie is way too draggy or maybe i m way to sleepy!
keep wanting to sleep! both me n MING JIANG cannot tahan!
movie ended like 2am, n i cant rmb wat the movie abt,
walked to ORCHARD CENTRAL to get my car n drove him back home n me back home!!

TOTAL SPEND FOR THE WEEKEND!!! %250 BUCKS! hahahahah

2009-07-08T01:21:00.003+08:00

FINALE!
haiz this will be my last post on my blog,
i took so much time to update a post first coz i don have time, i rather spend quality time with others den in front of computer doing nth!
will be enlisting in a few hours time!

i m sad abt some stuffs but overall i felt very happy coz i managed to do things i don really do,
this shows how much important little things r!

i had like tonnes of durians outings with diff peeps almost every night!
TERRY, YONG n his TWC peeps, OCREWS,

every night i m just eating eating eating non stop,

from 85 market with some of my dance juniors, to chomp chomp with random peeps, chomp chomp with colleagues, to dim sum with YONG n peeps n OCREWS, to maggie goreng with WILL and STEAMBOAT with EPIC CREW!

i finally manage to sent my mum to work every morning like 430am!
den sent YONG to work at 630am!
den off to run the reservoir at 715am!
its been a routine for the past few days!
LOVE IT!

i end my last moment of FREEDOM with RYAN MODERN class!!!!!!
ans last fren i met is YONG!!! lolx

BEFORE I END THIS POST!
SPECIAL THANKS TO>>>>
MUM! thanks for every single thing u did to me for the past few days, spending so much money on my NS stuffs! ur concern just made me felt so touched, even little things like getting me COUNTERPAIN for muscle aches made me wanna tear coz before u r too busy to even talk to me, i blamed u for being unreasonable n scold vulgarities at u! but yeah hope u forgive me, i hope wen i m in NS u r happy working, first person i call wen i got free time will be u!! n wat made me even more TOUCHED is u goin to close ur shop to sent me over to TEKONG!
urghhhhh

YONG! finally i got to sent to u to work, hard to talk to u coz both very busy working n dancing, but the time spend talking for dat 15 mins this few days made me even realised how much i appreciate this frenship! all the ups n down this 3 yrs, the childish quarrells n even the happy bitching moments, now its even harder to see me online, even harder to bitch, even harder to share my probs!

RYAN AND GIN! thanks for being the source of inspiration all these while in my dance life!
i may not be the best dancer around but the knowledge both of u nurtured me made me feel dat i do grown up more n more each day to be a better dancer to be a better person! THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE, ADVICES AND SUPPORT!

to EVERYONE!
THANKS FOR THE FAREWELL DINNER!
CHAMPION FOR JIM BEAM DANCE COMP - EPIC CREW(nicole, meiqi, jean, foong & ah lee) + LORENCIA! thanks for the steamboat...
WILL - thanks for the maggie goreng and good luck for ur last competition too! please have a good rest
TERRY & KAREN - the supper at CHOMP2
KENNETH,CLARENACE AND NICOE - the shiok 85 market food and DURIANS!!
LASTLY thanks MUM for the best farewell dinner coz its ur birthday too!!!!

to the rest of u ppl!
have fun, enjoy n do take care!

2009-06-27T04:37:00.001+08:00

WEIRD!

usually i hate to go clubbing!
but today i just got extra high until i don wan to leave the club!! sibei shiok la!!!
next week last season having such event with so many dancers around on the dancefloor!!!

JIAYOU EPIC CREW!!
sorry i still forget steps!!

i remembered wat u said!
u accept me for who i m!
but wat happened now?

2009-06-26T15:15:00.002+08:00

RANDOM!
wah been damn freaking tired rushing from mum shop den to training den midnight den reached home for the past few weeks!
ITS WAS FUN but damn tired!
n i m like suffering from insonmia!
freaking tired but cant sleep!

YTD was funny after training had CHENG CHENG CHENG TENG opp sch as usual! got home rest den chat!
talking to WILL den suddenly both HUNGRY!
so we decided to meet for supper n its like near 2am!
i went to top up abit of petrol den off to BALESTIER to fetch WILL
supper nearby his place!
pretty good MEE GORENG,EGG, AND THE PAPEDOM AND TEA PENG!
HAHAHZ
chat chat chat!
den off home!
still cant sleep!
so i waited till 5am n sent my mum off to work!!

slept around 6plus den woke up around 1145 by kenneth sms!

something happened dat made me freaking pissed off!
i just wanna curse and swear but HECK LA!

off to my mum shop for lunch den now back home resting!
leaving home soon for JIM BEAM COMP later!
i m freaking not prepared
hopefully everything goes fine!!!!!

2009-06-20T03:31:00.002+08:00

CLUBBING!!

CLUBBING is freaking SHIOK! wen theres tonnes of dancers around!
no GRINDING, pure fun...
NEXT FRIDAY one more session! wahahaah

2009-06-13T07:23:00.005+08:00

DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?
well well well!
all i can say 12 JUNE 2009 will be one of the most memorable day of my life!
i'd rush here and there, first to rehearsals for CCA AWARDS den back to UBI for my driving test!
the feeling of retaking ur driving test wen u failed one 3 months ago!
its damn shitty, and after dat u know u got less den an hour to prepare for performance! goodness!
I MANAGED TO PASS MY DRIVING TEST!
but i didnt manage to watch the road safety video and made payments coz i cab back to sch and prepare for the performance!

i dunno how to describe this feeling but i'm just extreme touched by watever dat happened yesterday!

TO BOTH MY PARENTS who finally came to support me and went on stage to collect the award with me! it felt extremely speechless wen finally both my dad and mum spend a little time away from work and came down to watch me perform, I HOPE I DO MAKE YOU GUYS PROUD!

TO BOTH MY BUDDIES KOK SHENG AND YONG! its like been ages since i last saw them also!
both r pretty busy with work and life, and i don have time to call them out to meet also. THANKS for the time coming down to support also esp KOK who came down ALONE!
and special THANKS to YONG for the sourvenir from TAIWAN! i hope you guys like the performance coz i never dance such dance infront of you guys b4!

TO SEXY CINDERBELLY PARTNER LORENCIA KAN! dancing with her is extremely NUTS! coz shes like freaking pro, but well thanks for the time rushing down from work, giving all the choreos in the item and tolerating this blur ass guy! thanks so much LORENCIA!

TO THE REST OF TPDE, the bitches dat perform ytd also, good job, but not to ROYSTON who freaking funny forget steps damn obvious, haha anyway well done to all of u for training hard and representing TPDE on stage, the rest of tpde who came down to support and congrats to those to won any awards too.

TO FAYANNE! not forgetting her, well i used to dislike her alot but well not coz of her banned me from dancing 1 semester i guess my results wont be as nice, thanks FAYANNE for pushing for getting this AWARD too.

TO MAYBELLE SUA! thanks for having faith me in all the time, one of the best ppl to bitch with, sibei funny! hahaha

RAAZMY ARTISTE OF THE YEAR 2009!

dats the end of my post!
will update much more photos of the past month events!

LASTLY A SONG,
DO I MAKE YOU PROUD!

I've never been the one to raise my hand
That was not me, and now that's who I am
Because of you, I am standing tall
My heart is full of endless gratitude
You were the one, the one to guide me through
Now I can see and I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud?
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud?

I Guess Ive Learned
To Question Is To Grow
That You Still Have Faith
Is All I Need To Know
Ive Learned To Love
Myself In Spite Of Me
And Ive Learned To
Walk On The Road I Believe

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud?
There ain't no question, just do I make you proud?
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud?
Do I make you proud?

2009-05-15T22:55:00.003+08:00

M.F!
whats M.F? its MOTHER FUCKER!
seriously i don understand WHY my freaking mum understand how to appreciate man!
if i can express myself seriously i will wanna shout FUCK rite in front of her FACE!
i'm being really chill just to go in my room n lock myself up!

every single day i woke up damn early in morning just to go her shop to help her out!
den i will leave around 1 plus or 2 head to school to start training for KO NIGHT with nicole or maybe session with some others! by this time i m seriously dead TIRED!
i just wanna have sometime resting or maybe catching up with frens!
but she will call and call me to go home to MASSAGE her!
yes i tried my best to go home and massage her!
AFTER HELPING HER AT SHOP FUCKING RIGHT IN THE MORNING! den she know i am goin to school to train!
DOES SHE FUCKING HAVE A HEART KNOWS HOW FUCKING TIRED AM I?
this FUCKING life routine had been goin for like 1 MONTH PLUS!
i FUCKING hell don have enough SLEEP and REST!
by the time i reached home she will just give me some FUCKED UP ATTITUDE!
like as though i m not appreciating her! THE MONEY SHE GAVE ME N SUCH!
she making me feel like i m making used of her!

IF I M SUCH A FUCKING USELESS SON!
I DON EVEN WANNA WAKE UP RITE IN THE MORNING WITH LESS DEN 4HOURS SLEEP A DAY! WALK AND TAKE BUS TO YOUR FUCKING SHOP AND HELP YOU AS MUCH AS I COULD!

I FUCKING SACRIFICE MY OWN SLEEP AND LEISURE TIME COZ I WANNA HELP YOU!

DO YOU FUCKING HELL SEE WAT I M TRYING TO DO!

i FUCKING remember telling her Y NOT ASK MY 2 OTHER FUCKING BROTHERS TO MASSAGE HER SINCE I HELPED HER AT HER SHOP!
den she will give me another FUCKING ATTITUDE!

BUT TODAY WAS JUST PISSED ME OFF!
TMR IS MY KO NIGHT! I DON WAN TO THROW FACE!
RIGHT EARLY IN MORNING I WENT TO HER SHOP TO HELP HER! BUT LEFT QUITE EARLY COZ I JUST NEED A SHORT NAP IN SCH!
BUT IT WASNT SUCCESSFULL AS THE ROOM WAS FREAKING NOISY!
I END UP USING MY LAPTOP AND REST MY BODY!
3pm start training!
sweat like DOG! STINKS like BABI!
den went to watch their GRADUATION stage marking!
den went to opp sch for CHENG TENG and str8 HOME!
she called me wen i m under the block i tell her i will massage her wen i step on the doorstep!
I TOT SHE WILL BE HAPPY DAT I GOT HOME EARLY TO MASSAGE HER!

ONCE I OPENED THE DOOR, SHE GAVE ME THE FACE LIKE SHES GOIN TO DIE RIGHT AT DAT POINT OF TIME! I TOLD HER GO CHANGE TO HER SHORTS DEN I WAN MASSAGE!

DEN SHE FUCKING RELPIED ME "NO NO NO NO NEED",
U EVERYDAY GO HOME LATE, GO DANCE DANCE DANCE! LET ME DIE OR WATEVER!

FUCK SIA! SERIOUSLY IF U DON WAN ME TO MASSAGE U, FUCKING HELL DON CALL ME N RUSH ME BACK HOME MAN! give me dat FUCKING ATTITUDE!

anytime she asked me to massage her i just massage, i don even complained!
even though i had chalet n got home at 7am, she asked for massage i massage ok!
wat else she wan from me?
every single day got home at 8pm n massage her!
HELLO I NEED SOMETIME TO REST OK?
yes FAMILY IS MY PRIORITY!
n i alr set it rite!
i know my duty as a son!
i m not heartless enough not to help u, just everyday take ur money den forget abt u!
i don mind helping u at a FUCKING hot environment!
but is this how to show me how APPRECIATIVE U R?

i m SORRY i shouted at u! though u r my mum i guess u FUCKING DONT UNDERSTAND WATS GOIN ON!
IF U WAN BE SELFISH YOUR LIFE AT THIS AGE!
EVERYONE WILL JUST AVOID U LA!
i did wat i could for now to be a good son!
but u need to be a good mum!
U DON EVEN SUPPORT MY DANCE!
U NV ASKED HOWS MY DANCE DOIN!
EVEN I TOLD U I M SICK AND INJURED U FUCKING DON CARE!
WENEVER I SAID I M SICK AND INJURED, UR REPLY WILL BE U DANCE TOO MUCH!

as a MUM you said such stuffs, u made me feel like i don even thankful for who i m now!
i just feel damn lost! very very lost!

2009-05-08T14:06:00.003+08:00

SHOUTOUT!

EVERYONE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY!

2009-05-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

P.S!
sometimes or maybe most of the time people dont see what good things someone did!
they only see the bad things that was done!
its pretty disappointing, but what to do, maybe this is human nature!
even if a friend put in some effort but sometimes they just dont see it!

i don even know how to react next, sometimes it felt so STUPID,
trying to hang on, not to be sensitive, just HECK
keeping myself busy, slack, drag time...
but the feeling of being like a JUNK is so OVERWHELMING!

MAYBE I'LL JUST WAIT AND SEE
AND GET TIRED AND SICK OF THIS SHIT!

*mum - please dont take me for granted! i hope you appreciate what i have done like how i appreciate what you had done to me! i am seriously dead tired! MONDAY TO SUNDAY helping you right early in the morning then i gotta rush down for training in the afternoon! reaching home very late every night, with only less den 4 hours of sleep daily! my body seriously is in pain! i've been sick for a few weeks! my shoulders and backbone in deep pain! i told you countless time i need you to sent me to the doctor but you take my words seriously!
nobody understand how am i feeling, everybody is busy with their own life! you said you are tired! who is not tired! PLEASE spare some thoughts for me! i've got no rest and i'm living in PAIN MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY!

2009-05-03T18:24:00.003+08:00

KO-ED!
gosh finally i managed to get sometime to rest more and blog!
yeah i m still goin MIA for while i guess!
haha!

KO NIGHT heats just over! well it was a freaking scary experienced!
nv ever tot of joining with NICOLE! shes like my longest dance mate!
new her since sec 1 n dance with her since sec 4!
99% of dance comp shes in my group and now shes my dance partner!
well i feel both of us work pretty well! i know soemtimes she pissed off with me coz i m such a lazy and blur partner!
but i guess we compromise each other well! we do work well as a team! and we really had fun and nv really too stress wen training!
now we are in the TOP 8 finalist! and freestyling is totally no joke for us coz we never ever freestyle b4! but i guess we will work hard, no to win or own other grp but to push ourself and be a better dancer!
an achievement i wish to accomplish before i go in NS!

JOB WELL DONE to every single teams who participated! YES the competition is bloody tough this time round! but wat makes me happy is wenever each team finished showcasing they came up to the holding room and felt damn happy! the crowd was awesome! the music was LOUD!
i guess this is one of the best thing to hear from other dancers dat they enjoy dancing!
to those who didnt make it well dont be disheartened as there are more opportunities out there!
WE ALL LOVE DANCE! DANCE IS NEVER GONNA END ANYTIME!

i am extremely proud by alot of my juniors who went to join the competition!
esp ANDY and JOEY! they make it to TOP 8 too! esp to ANDY never ever cross my mind he dared to join competition! but now LOOK WHERE IS HE NOW!
to JOEY, well shes the grooivest dancer in TPDE, and i bet u people she and her partner will do tonnes of crazy things man!
TO DEAREST JEAN AND AHLEE! i m so gonna miss training with u guys at SMU! dance for 5 mins chat and eat for another 5 hours! hahaz its ok u guys dont make it! WE ALL CHIONG FOR SUNTEC TGT OK! provided i go in NS after SEPT!

TO DEREK haha this ass over here queued for like an hour plus to support me! told him not to come but still come! thanks alot la! i don even realised dat i was facing you wen i'm dancing! damn nice of u! hahahaz

THANKS MEIQI FOR THE HONEY MILK TEA!

NOT TO FORGET thanks to KEITHS for being in the toilet comforting me wen i m vomiting mins b4 my turn to showcase, i guess i m still sick! still vomitting! hahah

LIFE is kinda different now!
i hope my mum is fined with watever challenges shes facing now! (she not sick or wat) personnel issues, all i can say shes really my first priority! i sacrificed my sleep just to be around her!

been hanging out with the bboys alot(harris,rb,say liang,joel,kat and more more)!
THANKS for constantly asking me out for dinner supper! talking with me about anything and everything! consulting and sharing with me about watever probs you guys r facing!

THANKS to WILL for the daily midnight chat and WEBCAM! lolx!
been pretty fun time doing all these stuffs! haha

FOR NOW! i so gonna concentrate on KO NIGHT! and make those people who have FAITH in me proud of who i m! RYAN GIN, EVERYONE IN TPDE who have faith,support me and have concern for me! to those who smsed me GOOD LUCK AND EVERYTHING thanks so much

LASTLY!
today is the first day for 1 yr dat i don have a MAID at home! my parents sent her off due to alot of reasons! felt damn sad! my brother even cried wen my mum told her shes sending her off back to the agency! apart from being angry with her all the time coz shes damn blur, lazy and talkative! i do thank her alot of taking care of the house coz theres noone at home!
while waiting for the new maid to come! i m gonna be the maid!
i did the laundry, dishes and even cook lunch today! haha

i slept alot alot too!!!
chatted with PINWEN abt life! coz currently both felt SHITTY abt some issues!
been awhile since i talked to him coz he having NS! haha

ok its kinda a freaking long post! i m gonna end here!
wanna dinner with my FAMILY and maybe have a haircut later!!

2009-05-01T14:32:00.002+08:00

MIA!
I THINK ITS TIME TO GO MIA FOR A WHILE!
I AM KINDA SICK AND TIRED BY ALOT OF STUFFS!
AND I DONT WISH TO SHARE WITH PEOPLE!
I'M GONNA TAKE A BREAK AND CHILLAX FOR THE TIME BEING!

HOPE THINGS GET BETTER!

2009-04-23T20:47:00.003+08:00

ROUTINE!
ok this few days been feeling damn WEAK!
its like a routine for me to wake up like 6AM and kept coughing and PUKING! until i felt i had nomore energy!
after dat i will make my way down to my mum shop to help her out a while!
den 11plus left the shop n go down to the CCA recruitment booth to slack with the other dancers!
den either dinner opposite school or went airport to chat non stop!

RAAZMY IS NOT GOING TO INITIATE ANY OUTINGS FOR THE TIME BEING!
FEEL DAMN RETARDED PLAN PLAN DEN EVEN HIS BUDDIES GOT THEIR OWN BETTER PLANS!
SO WHY PLAN RITE?
I SHOULD JUST WAIT FOR PPL TO ASK ME OUT!
WAHAHAHA!

* NEED TO CONCENTRATE ON KO NITE!
* SO ADDICTED TO UNBEAUTIFUL!

2009-04-23T01:02:00.003+08:00

UNBEAUTIFUL!
HAIZ i wonder do YOU even remember we are supposed to meet?
i dont know wat else to say,
i already initiated, i did my part..
i treasure i show..
thats the best i can do now!

HECK LA!
since concert i m so addicted to this song! and the routine is freaking AWESOME!
totally addicted! wish i could dance this song!

UNBEAUTIFUL!
Don't hang up,
Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
I'm unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
It's only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

I've been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
I'm stuck in time
I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

2009-04-21T11:13:00.001+08:00

SICK!
damn i cant sleep!
kept on PUKING!
my shoulder alr felt so uncomfortable and now my tummy HURTS badly!
DAMN IT!

2009-04-18T20:07:00.004+08:00

L.O.V.E
finally got my 1000hours of sleep!
seriously was freaking tired as the whole week was all about rushing here n there!
help mum at her work place, den rushed back to sch for training, supper till late with the bboys!
TIRED TIRED TIRED!!

JAM N HOP!
well 4 days of training!
the performance honestly was bad!
but its ok, its an experienced for the juniors to grow better n better!
THANKS TO RELIEZ who really came down to support n cheer for me!
felt damn touched!
THANKS TO BUDDY YONG TOO!
for being a good BOUNCER! haha
talk to him n he asked me to dance in the circle apart from the BAD SONGS played!
seriously i felt i'm in ZOUK! trance all the way!! PUKES!
after JAM N HOP went opp sch with the rest to have our supper!
the bboys planned to watch movie but me being plain lazy coz i will just fall asleep in the cinema!
so i hanged out with JEAN,AH LEE,NICOLE,MEI QI & KEITHS!
talk non stop! had really really good time chatting n updating each other about life!
we left MAC at abt 215am! how i wish we can stay n talk all nite long!!!! hahaha

SENT OFF!
on WEDNESDAY, i went to the airport to sent KOK SHENG off,
he went HONG KONG for holiday with his BUDDIES!
talked to him alot too! STUPID CHEEKOPEK KOK!
turning into a CHEE HONG!!!
spend about 45 mins with him den he gotta queue for custom thingy den he asked me to leave,
before he got in the plain, gave me a call den CIAOS!
will be back on MONDAY nite! den we gonna find job n work our ass off man!!!!!!!

LASTLY!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY
MR MUSCLE MAN! WILL TAN!!
HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL FOR YOU LA!!
STOP THINKING TOO MUCH..
WILL PRAY THE VERY BEST FOR YOU AND YOUR LIFE TOO!!!!

-its been 3 yrs, i know who i LOVE right now!

2009-04-12T21:20:00.005+08:00

MOON & SUN TANNING!
FRIDAY 10TH APRIL!
its was TPDE NIGHT CYCLING OUTING!
but i was feeling freaking unwell!
was msning with WILL TAN deciding to cycle or not!
he also don have the mood to cycle! but the plan was still pending!
LORENCIA called me soon after telling me they wont be cycling too, instead they gonna have a nite picnic under the moon! i tot dat was pretty a good alternatives!

was supposed to meet them at 7pm at east coast mac!
but haha WILL left his house at 7 to fetch me up at my place!
n he stayed at NOVENA there!
but well being a DOPESHIT driver he reached my place pretty fast! den we went east coast!
met with the rest( though not everyone is there yet)
WILL don wan have MAC for dinner so we went SUBWAY packed n had our SUBWAY at MAC!
slack chat waited for the rest to come which took them 2hours!

MACDONALD SHOTS!

the DOPEST driver WILL TAN!the always AWESOME NICOLE!the CINDERELLA LORENCIA!the RICH PHOTOGRAPHER CHONG!

sick of waiting for latecomers!
the picnic clique went to set up our pit!
hahaha!
settle down, soon all the bikers came to our area to put their begs down n start cycling!
left with ME,WILL,LOREN,NICOLE!
den MEIQI came with her WAFFLE N MUAH CHEE!!
we ended up chatting abt tonnes of stuffs!
LIFE, TPDE and more!
gotta more stuffs from WILL abt his point of view as someone new in TPDE!

he left around midnight!
the rest of us kept on chatting n camwhoring!
me being unwell slept! got up n its freaking cold!!!
chat,play more!
getting irritated by the drunk people singing their asses off!
den the crows ruin our sleep!
we start packing up n headed to MAC CAFE for breakfast while waiting for the whole TPDE to get back!

the fat and the fit!

sleep sleep sleep

breakfast

headed home! den bathe n headed back to sch for some dance talks!
soon after the talk, met FION,VICTORIA,SHAUN & CHESTER!
n took bus 23 n head to SENTOSA!
meet EDMUND n more others along the way to SENTOSA!

SATURDAY!
reached SENTOSA! n the weather is like SCOTCHING HOT!!!!!
met with DEREK first den we get our drinks!
den get all the LAO JIAOS den we start playing CAPTAIN'S BALL!
LAO JIAOS versus YR 1 AND YR 2s!
its the best CAPTAIN'S BALL game i ever play!
had so much fun!
THE LAO JIAOS SIBEI COMPETITIVE,
THE YR 1 N YR 2s damn awesome too!!!

i love the WE ARE ALL YEAR 3s!!
well we won 9-2!!!!
den it started raining heavily!
proceed to 7-11 and waited den start having a small cheer battle!! with SP!
DEREK called telling me he done bathing! so i rushed to get a quick bathe!
den we headed back to VIVO!
on the way to VIVO! MAYBELLE came to me a gave me a LOVE bag! wah DAMN DAMN AWESOME! its like hot shiny PINK with the word LOVE! hahah
sibei TOUCHED!!!
i started CAMWHORE with the bag!!!

first was DEREK den MY TURN!!!

HEADED DOWN TO VIVO!
had DINNER with YONG!
packed SUBWAY den we go to our empires to eat!

FREE STUFFS!!!

den start having CHEER BATTLE!
with SP again! but now they more RAH!
but well TP is freaking AWESOME at cheering ba!
we cheer like nobody business!
kept on cheering until at a point of time i feel we nv give them chance to reply!
our ppl alr overpower their ppl! in addition our cheer is damn FRESH too!
it was a friendly battle ah!
both schs support each other! they gave us 3 CHEERS n we return them back too!!!!
dunno wat happened TP kept cheering den one of the SP guy started throwing soccer ball n shoes at us!
den some of tp not happy n wanna start fight!
manage to stop them!

TP UNITED! THE CHEER BATTLE! HANDS DOWN TP!!

den i went find KOK SHENG!
den he ask me walk walk n talk abt some stuffs! just wanna sit down ppl ask we all take photos for them!
whie taking photos we look behind! the fight between some tp n sp ppl got worst1
so me n KOK rushed back to help stop the fight!

the main comms help settle down the fight n everyone! den we ask them to proceed home with the east side ppl!!

MORE PHOTOS WITH DUA LOVES!!!!

SEXY MAYBELLE! THE ONE WHO GAVE ME THE AWESOME BAG!

LOVE ME!!!

LOVE KOK!!!

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!!!
i so gonna dance this song for JAM N HOP n make the crowd go wild!
but too bad KOK wont be seeing! coz he is the BEST DANCER to dance this song!
nvm dedicate to him while he is in HK!

I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU!!!

2009-04-10T13:47:00.005+08:00

WHAT MAKES A LIFE!
another phase of life just ended!
my last FO camp as a TP student!
PS: i wanted to update about alot of stuffs! but uploading photos took so much time! so i'm prioritising this first!

MEMORIES!
i could still feel the very first day coming to TP to attend the FOC! 06/07!
supposed to go with ZI LIANG but on the day itself he PS me!
so i made my way alone to the sports complex and settle down LONER!
first day of the camp i was pretty quiet coz i m not a very open up person!

AND now! i just finished FO camp 09/10with tears and the joy i had throughout all these yrs in poly! i knew i never regretted coming to tp! though my o levels results didnt make me enter the course i wanted, but i guess everything happen for a reason!

i enjoyed every single moment being a freshie and a gl througout my 3 yrs poly life!
time past really freaking fast, i wished i can be a poly student n stick with all my buddies and campmates throughout my life!

though i m very committed to dance! but this CAMP do change my life!
this camp made me wanna be a leader, CHEER for the empire! STAND UP HIGH AS A TP STUDENT! this camp made me have the courage to shout across n give ppl the message of how much freshies,frens,gls,buddies had inspired me to be who i m today!

TO THE PEOPLE I NEVER FORGET!

LIM YONG CHIANG!

known for his KISS GOODBYE! lalala I SO LOST WITHOUT YOU!
as stated above i camp for FOC 06/07 as a loner! this man over here is the first ever fren i made in poly! the very first nite of FOC both of us randomly sat nearby the toilet at the sports complex and chat! talk abt life n got to know each other more!
even after the camp ended, he asked me out for shopping, with just 10 bucks left in my wallet! this dude here treated me 2 movies! EIGHT BELOW & REINCARNATION!
from dat day onwards i know he is someone dat i can really trust n someone whom i can talk to!

however the both of us also had tonnes of problems!
pretty childish of me! tonnes of misunderstanding! i guess theres even a point where we hated each other so much, we stopped talking for months!
honestly, i felt true frens r hard to find! i shldnt be too petty abt situation, we talked things out we accept each other back and now he is one of my best pal,my best buddy a fren dat i will take care n give my concern!
and he is the only friend dat sent me GOODNITE MSGES!!

and i RESPECT him for being extra hardworking and being himself!

HO KOK SHENG!

MR COOL - NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU!
haha, i seriously cant rmb how the hell i got to close with this guy over here!
all i knew he told me dat i m EXTRA FRIENDLY!
well MR KS here is the most competitive fren i had!
he pushed himself too much until forget his limits la sometimes!
i guess having this great buddy is just awesome, he gave me endless support!
always said i dance well, wen i know sometimes i just suck big time!
i don even know how to thank him sometimes!
all i can say is he will never forget his frens!
feel damn touch wenever he asked for lunch or dinner or any random meetups!
apart from his super busy schedule, he made time for me n stuffs!

KOK u know i m always there for u!
u better take care of ur health la! during camp i will be around to see whether u sick n be there for u! u know wen u got sick things just got bad! wen u go NS u sick u better take extra precaution hor! NOBODY NOBODY BUT ME! will give u good hospitality n concern! hahahah JUST KIDDING!

IN ADDITION! u really inspired me alot n made a huge diff in my life in alot alot alot of ways! all the words of motivations, encouragements,countless supports and advises, it just meant too much for me! u r the one who made me LOVE MYSELF more den anyone else!

our buddyship wont end even though our camp had ended!
i will be around 24/7 man!

DEREK LEE!

known for his VAINNESS TO THE MAXIMUM LEVEL!
haha i don wan regard him as a buddy coz he always LATE! n talk alot of bullshit!
i hated this ass here for damn long, since the day i was a poly student!
SIBEI wan act handsome! den think he damn big shot!
become a VENOSIAN! worst in my subempire!
damn it! i really hated him so much!
but things change on FOW 08/09, he stick with me n the rest for dinner! den from there i dunno y we become so close so!
almost everyday in sch, meet for lunch, countless breaks!
countless play truant n go out n do hair!
but until today he can take my attitude towards him!
everytime GAN him but still damn cool!

stupid ass! BETTER THINK OF UR FUTURE AH!

MAYBELLE SUA!

haha omg this BITCH over here is so ON!
love to bitch with her alot! also gotta know her in VENOS!
damn cool! one of the most insane gal i know in my life apart from JIAMIN,YUNRU! hahahaz
these r the few gals dat r freaking awesome! cannot find anywhere else but TP!

ANYWAY!
my this last camp was a memorable one also!
i still rmb last 2 weeks i went for dinner at 85 market coz NICOLE ask me come down as some BBOYS wanna have dinner! s i made my way there! i saw a few FUYO bboys, FTC bboys too!
well i don really talk much to them coz my dance is totally the opp of them!
so i can sit one corner n do my thing!

but FOC day 1 i saw BBOY SMALL ALEX! i was shocked coz during the dinner he was there n i don even say hi or wat! but during dat FOC, i don regard myself as a dancer! I M A GL! so i approached him as he was in KOK SHENG empire! i asked him wah u DOPE BBOY SO ON COME FOR CAMP! den he just smile n gave me a frendly comment which i cant rmb!
i went around telling alot of GLS dat, this ALEX at HOLQA is one of the dope bboy in SG! i dunno y m i so proud of him but i feel as a dancer who go for this type of leadership camps is OMG! haha.. talked to him a few times during the camp n gotta know each other more la!
i changed my impression of him also! guess his empire gls inspired him alot too coz he wanna be a gl too! GOOD JOB TO HOLQA'S GLS!

CONCLUSION! well i guess my post is getting too wordy!
i just wanna thank to all these people for making my life happening!
YONG,KOK SHENG,DEREK,MAYBELLE,JESSYBESSY,HAKIM, ALL THE LAOJIOAS, ALL THE PPL WHO MADE THE CAMP HAPPEN!!!

LOVE YOU PEOPLE AND I SO GONNA MISS U GUYS!

2009-03-22T18:32:00.003+08:00

MISSED!
finally SUNDAY with no trainings!
suppose to meet GIN to shop for shoe rack!
but had some family probs where i need to stay at home the whole day!
not bad! i manage to sleep alot!
apart from having super duper shoulder pain from not warming up den wen str8 to carry LORENCIA with tonnes of liftings! it was fun until the point where i cant breathe!

ANYWAY!
went ZOUK ytd coz NICOLE brought us in for FREE!
but trust me! I CANT STAND THE MONO TRANCE MUSIC!
by 12 we left n headed for our FAV beancurd!
CAB home!
madness i spend 80 bucks! CAB took 20 bucks of it!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!
haiz i feel i m kinda busy dat i don even have time for my other frens!
felt bad!
miss my classmates alot!
i don even know wat r they doin now DUH!

KOK SHENG also one more thing!
he is like freaking busy with his programme thing!
online also nv talk!
suppose meet for dinner suppose to find costumes tgt!
but time like goin against us!

maybe he is having fun jiong gal!
nb!
sure gonna meet him for DND!

and gonna pass him n YONG the SWISS CHOCS i got from my dad! wahhaah

2009-03-20T01:51:00.002+08:00

BROKERN STRINGS!

sorry ppl!
i m freaking busy to update my blog!
all i m looking forward everyday is
CONCERT training den SLEEP!!!!
but will updates on my GREAT LIFE currently!
more photos to be upload soon!!!!

here is my current fav song!!

Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

2009-02-27T17:47:00.003+08:00

THE END!
LAST PAPER that ended my life as TEMASEK POLY student was a BREEZE!
was so happy that the questions were pretty easy!
ended up my fingers n neck having major cramps!

Overnight outing was cancelled coz CHEE YONG couldnt get the car last min!
so yeah my my 2hrs circuit practice went home and SLACK for the whole nite!

cant wait for upcoming events!
cant wait to see all my friends on MONDAY!
RELIEZ chalet from 3rd to 5 MARCH!

so people HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

LASTLY!
CONGRATS YONG FOR PASSING HIS BTT!!
HAHAH

2009-02-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

I'D RATHER!

I RATHER BE A BITCH
THAN BE SOMEONE WHO IS HEARTLESS
AND DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE!

let your fucking EGO blind your life!

THE HIGH ROAD!

I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave everything that I had
But you left me in the cold
But still I have faith
Somehow I believe
That if I keep love in my heart
It will find it's way to me

I could fight
Seek revenge
But that's not who I am
No i'm not giving in
I will rise above

Im gonna keep walking though it may seem far
Im gunna keep preaching when life gets too hard
Not gunna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

Im gunna keep climbing 'till I see the top
Im gunna keep trying though I may get lost
Not gunna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

This pain that I feel
I will overcome
I know somewhere deep down inside
Its the pain that makes us strong

I could curse
I could shout
Take the easy way out
I forgive you some how
I will rise above

Oh I know I'll get by
To be real [to be real]
I can't keep it inside [though I can't keep it inside]
I may hurt sometimes
But i will survive

Im gunna keep reaching
Im gunna keep climbing

2009-02-25T08:17:00.003+08:00

21ST 21ST!!!
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ME!
thanks everyone for the wishes
msn, sms, facebook!!
ehehz

as usually
YONG will always be the first one to wish me! haha
thanks dude!

ANYWAYs
wont be doin much today!
just goin to sch and STUDY for tmr!
after the after shocked of unexpected ICC paper, everyone got freaking scared!
all the best to everyone!

WISHES!
i made 3 WISHES for my 21ST!
just 3! hehe

-will YOU even put in an effort to wish me?

2009-02-24T10:18:00.003+08:00

SACRIFICED?
recently, i decided to sacrifice TPDE GEMS CONCERT!
it was a horrible desicion,
it left me with no choice coz it clashes with FO CAMPS!
i dunno whether the dancers, GIN & RYAN accept this, i hope they were in my shoes..

i hope all the 4 FOs and 3 OTCs i spend with the YR3s will be a fruitful one,
and i believe it will be GREAT!

now waiting for my papers to end den gonna meet both GIN & RYAN to explain y i made this desicion!

ARGH
scared to the max!!!!

2009-02-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

CONDOMS!
both my and KOK were like walking around TM to find something for FUNG YONG'S birthday!
got for him a PEACE boxer!
den KOK wanted to get CONDOMS!
but i freaking paisei to get one!
so KOK damn NO SHAME! just wen to get the CONDOMS! LOVE theme samore!
this is like our first ever proper shot tgt!
record breaking!
MR WANNABE FREAKING FIT!

RAAZMY LOVES TO BITCH WITH MAYBELLE, KOK & YC!

2009-02-05T00:02:00.005+08:00

DOPESHIT!
random outings usually are freaking happening!
well i m actually to type!
but yeah the photos explains how much fun we had!
with a DOPE photographer REHAN!
n crazy ppl around!
the nite was fun and SCARY coz we went to see bapok at changi around 2am!
ahaha nth to do!

i'm lazy to arrange the photos!
but all the photos are freaking nice!
we r crazy abt jumping shots!
hahaha

well i have yet to upload the FUNKA photos and also yr3 outings!
tonnes of fun events happening!

LIFE HAD BEEN FREAKING AWESOME!

doesnt mean the people u tot r ur buddies left means ur life gonna get miserable!
eventually GOD is fair enough dat i moved on n had so much FUN!
i rather have someone who is sincere of their own reactions den being fake infront of u!
i done lost anything man!
i gain so much things instead!

2009-02-04T11:27:00.002+08:00

IF YOU LEAVE!
You think I'm so full of it, full of it
But I think I'm just fed up, baby
You think I can be so arrogant, arrogant
But I'm just tryna keep my head up, baby
You think I procrastinate baby
But I think I'm taking my time
You think you need to leave
But I think I disagree but

If you believe you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out yeah

I think you're so full of it, full of it
You just don't know when to let up baby
I think you're so arrogant, arrogant
But you think you're so much better baby
That I think it aint dealt before me to judge you by your flaws and that's why
No I could criticize, but I put that aside
To focus on you and I

But if you believe you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go boy, it's over
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go boy, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out yeah

Now if you wanna go, baby
Then I'll let you go
And even though I'm tryna hold on
I can't if you don't

No, now if you leave me, you're gonna miss me
and I'm not saying that I'll be here waiting
Since we here right now (instead of just walking out)
Let's work to reach the point that I know we can be...

But if you believe, you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go
It's over (it's over)
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, it's over
I have no doubt that we can work it out

If you believe, you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
Before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave...

CURRENTLY!
major addicted to the song man!
had been playing like 300 times! haha

well will update alot more wen i got photos of FUNKAMANIA! hahaa
meanwhile i wanna rest and chiong project!

2009-01-24T09:33:00.002+08:00

OVERWHELMED!
A BILLION THANKS TO RYAN!
dunno how to describe the feelings,
first the dance was damn beautiful!
now u made a video for us!
felt so LOVE!
hahah

GOD'S WILL
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first

His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway, it almost
Made me hurt

Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood

I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will

Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when

Hey Jude was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him

Before they moved to California
His mother said, they didn't think he'd live
And she said each day that I have him, well it's just
another gift
And I never got to tell her, that the boy
Showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
Me and God love you

I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah that was until...
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves

THANK YOU RYAN!

*it felt funny when i moved on pretty fast!
i may lost you but my i met more others dat made my life more different!

2009-01-15T12:06:00.003+08:00

FREEDOM!
RYAN's modern class always been DOPE!
apart from the crazy warms up, its really much worst den running 2.4km, doing the pull ups! hahah
ytd's routine was seriously BEAUTIFUL!

at times where your life get messy and lost,
you lost the trust with the people around you and you lost trust in yourself,
a dance routine made you felt the freedom in your heart, things are back into places,
a diff environment, a new hope, a new LIFE!

i cant wait for next week dance exams!
though i cant be part of the groupwork for their routine,
but i so gonna give all out for ytd's routine RYAN tot us!
and gonna practice hard for my turns! totally ytd new variations of turns made me wanna kill myself!

this SAT is FUNKAMANIA!
jia you all teams,
my team we gonna push ourselves more!
alot of things to do within 48hours!! hahahaz
GOGOGOGO

2009-01-07T09:20:00.003+08:00

SOMETIMES!

SOMETIMES THE PERSON YOU TREASURED THE MOST

WILL LEFT YOU FIRST!

LIFE is way more BEAUTIFUL, you can ever imagine
shit happens, be glad that it will make you STRONGER than before.

*napfa in few hours time, hope i do well
aim for silver means 5 pull ups, if i can do 7 pull ups mean i will get GOLD,
coz i have confidence in all other stations!

2009-01-06T09:54:00.002+08:00

ENDURE!
gosh with FUNKA coming up!
with the stupid EPS show in a few days time!
with my sch projects and assignments!
with my TERRIBLE health!
with the lab test this week!
and TONNES OF TRAININGS!

i really feel damn TIRED!
but it was damn SHIOK
IF MY TUMMY DONT GIVE ANYMORE PROBLEMS!
the pain is seriously UNBEARABLE!
i wanna be well..
PRAYING-to have GOOD HEALTH!

cant wait for EPS to be OVER! so WASTE OF TIME!

*hope the sleepless night, hope the reflection made me a stronger person!
i know i can!

2009-01-05T00:27:00.002+08:00

WHATEVER IT TAKES!
wa RAAZMY so power today!
he finished his assignments! hahaha

wah now i m like crazy over old songs!
so shiok listening man!
esp those POP SONGS!

ANYWAY,
was browsing through the past performances vid!
i think i miss dancing with LORENCIA!
dats like the most shiok thing man!
for the first time i cried on stage wen dancing though my dance SUCKS big time ah!
alignments n techniques CUI big time!
but it was a great experienced! how i wish can dance with her again!

RANDOM THOUGHTS!
i used to tell myself to hang on n nv give up!
m i a quiter if i quit?
even though i tried hard even though i change my life?

i finally realised how much i missed being me,
i tried too hard to make a fren see how much i was there,
i tot i was hungry over treasured friendship, but i got greedy n hurt myself even more!
i missed being the irritating me, i missed being attention seeking,
i kept telling myself never forget how i started, never forget the past,
but all this just made me endure n give in but end result i dunno wat i get?
yes! i blame myself for asking too much, i blame myself for changing my lifestyle,
this new year was a rough start but dat doesnt mean its goin to be rough rite?

its TIME for me to get my ass up!
get busy concentrate on things dat benefits me,
do wat i love!
i got DREAMS TO ACHIEVE!
this dreams have to be REAL man!
n i m gonna to STRIVE for it!

TO YOU,
i think theres no point talking anymore, i don need any explanations, i don need any sympathy,
u lead ur own life, u choose ur own frens, i wont beg for ur frenship, i don ask u to compromise, i wont ask u to understand, all i can say I'M SORRY i wasted your time
asking u to come down talk,
the meet ups,
the celebrations,
the chats,
the smses,
the care and concern u gave b4!
SERIOUSLY, u wasted ur time on it!
i wont ask for anything anymore,
let it rest,

and i will search the path of my own life!
THANKS FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE B4!
the past is just memories, u look back it, it wont be able repeat, good or bad its just memories!

2009-01-03T11:07:00.001+08:00

IF YOUR HEARTS NOT IN IT

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

haha, BACK TO THE 1990s POP SONGS!!!

2008-12-31T18:15:00.007+08:00

WHAT A DAY!
ok as promised i will update something again!
this post is actually for the people i wanna thank and will never forget!

2008!
tonnes of up and downs i must say!
but i am very blessed with tonnes of happening things!

MOST IMPT!
1ST IN THE LIST!
MY FAMILY-
this year had been rather good though tonnes of bad thing happened!
finally my dad bought a family car for us to travel here n there,
my mum business is getting much better now!
my youngest bro received a GOOD PROGRESS AWARD!
my elder bro got married in may!
my sis got her third child!
my 2nd bro, i dunno wat he doin coz i don talk to him, n thanks for stealing my money everytime!
my grandpa, sadded he broke his leg while climbing a tree at my house in malaysia! how smart!
but now he is well!
my maid! well coz of my grandpa leg condition, my parents decided to take a maid! with her around my house looks more like house! hahaha thanks for everything though until today shes damn F blur!

SPECIALLY FOR YOU!
to my MUM-
thanks for every single thing u did to me! u r the one i talked to wen i had problems!
u understand me well, u increased my allowance, u trust me apart from the stupid things i did few yrs back! u still have faith in me! all i can say I LOVE YOU!

to my DAD-
u had been working really hard! u lost so much weight from not having enough sleep! few days ago u encountered an accident coz u were sleepy, i dunno how to put in words, i wish u can take work lesser n rest more! i wan u to be healthy and don look OLD! i may be quiet at home but i care alot for u, u shld know urself i massage u wenever u need one!

to my 3 BUDDIES!-
my life is totally useless without the 3 of u!
-ALEX

u seriously the best buddy i have, the one whom nv stop talking every single day, i THANK you for all the care and concern you gave me, though both of us know we r goin through a rough time now,everything doesnt seems rite for us currently but give me time and i will get used to it!
since the first day we know each other we nv missed talking! i hope you understand my views i hope u were in my shoes i wish i m important like u other frens are! BUT let fate determines lo!
i wish we can be like last time!
i wont GIVE UP!

-KOK SHENG

my longest buddy, this mr HANDSOME always made me feel damn touched by his reaction, like taking off and just wan meet me to have lunch n spend the whole day chatting! he drove me around too for 85 market n so on! super mr nice guy who is obsessed with his body and gym currently! like wat u wrote in ur blog abt me, actually i worry abt u alot also, i don wan u to hurt urself by punching the wall, its scary ah! but no matter wat u know i always there for u!
n thanks for being there all the time though u always reply my msn damn long! hahahah
no matter wat i still wish u all the best with her, i wanna see u HAPPY again! coz u deserve to be happy!

-BOHAN

haha BABI! totally the most carefree pig around! but seriously without him i think i gonna be the most negative shit man! seriously BOHAN thanks for all the words though its harsh but its true! i wish i could be like u, SO FIT SO CAREFREE! honestly the coolest dragonboater around man!
learn piano n dance! DOPE SHIT!
thanks for all the time n treat to movie, always so free to find me n slack.

YONG CHIANG aka YC

well this good fren of mine!
the very first fren i made wen i came to tp!
though we hardly talk, we don even meet anymore, we don even update each other life. its saddening but i m happy dat he is having a good life, he work damn hard to earn money and he also had tonnes of fun with his frens around him!
how i wish we r like the past, the very first day we know each other at FOC camp, we bitch, we shop, and watch 2 movie tgt! his bdae where i went under his block to find him, cant forget those time, but well i guess both of us had a different lifestyle, something i wish will nv come true, but i hope you know how much i care.
just hope dat u don drink so much and do have plenty of rest! see ya around in sch and also I STILL OWE YOU BDAE PRESENT!
-BITCHES OF 20-1-44
RAUF,REHAN,BECKY,KIANYEE,ALEX,ALVIN...

well bitching sessions were the most fun thing man!
playing and taking photos, random meeting late nites!
really had tonnes of fun with u guys!! hahah
soon we goin to meet up!! wheeeeeee

-TPDE DANCERS!

haha i dunno how to explain this but u guys r really the grp of bitches dat i always look forward to meet, we can bitch abt anything n everything! hahh so FUN!

-MF TWIN LESNER

i hope u are alright now, i m hardly free to find u, but u shld know i m there man!

NEW YEAR EVE!
and i m home rotting!

HONESTLY,
i tot i wan meet any of my buddies to chill or soemthing, but yeah they r all busy n have their plans on!
i had 2 other outings, dance and reliez, but i don feel right meeting them so i decided to stone at home! hope EVERYONE had fun countdown! hehehez

MY 2009 WISH AND GOAL!
-dance with FREDY as any occasion, its like the biggest dream for me to dance with him!!!
-to put up 2 items for TPDE concert, one modern one hiphop
-hope my relationship with my buddies stays strong
-hope i m posted to police or civil defence
-hope to meet the person i LOVE!
-my parents and frens to be healthy

2008-12-31T12:05:00.002+08:00

ALONE!
well decided to stay at home!
just feel like being alone and think of how my YEAR 2009 will be!
i will be posting something later at nite!!
so yeah!

31st DEC!
i managed to run from school back home!
at 12noon!
FREAKING HOT!
but yeah 1 more week till NAPHA!
i will be hitting the stadium later in the evening n more pull ups!!

i'm not in a VERY WELL MOOD!
partly coz of my tongue ulcers and some problems i still need to get used to it!

I WANNA BE A HAPPY PERSON! though its hurting inside badly!
wahahah

anyway!

TO EVERYONE OUT THERE HAPPY COUNTDOWN!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
HOPE 2009 WILL BE A GREAT YEAR FOR EVERYONE!

MY 3 BUDDIES!
-ALEX
have fun at MALAYSIA bbqing!
-KOK SHENG
have fun countdown with ya army fren!
-BOHAN
have fun gyming n happy countdown at ya fren's place!

TO EVERYONE
HAVE FUN!

2008-12-26T12:13:00.002+08:00

DECIDED!
i made a decision to remove all the posts regarding YOU!
theres nothing for me to look back n see an ugly side of the world!
what keeps us strong is the time we used to relate!
though its fading BUT i believe if we trust we compromise YOU are still the buddy i know!

THANKS for the time!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

2008-12-25T13:09:00.003+08:00

SAVED ME!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!
though i never celebrate i got some random plans!

last few days was HELL coz i'm freaking sick!
still i went for GIN'S steamboat session at ANNABELLE's condo!
it was fun but i don eat and talk much coz really really no mood!

THANKS to OSCHOOL' chamomile tea dat saved my bleeding throat!
thanks to my thick blanket dat covers me during my sleep n let my fever go away!
n sorry to my fan coz i off it wen i'm sleeping!
hahah THIS IS THE CURE!
but now i m having MIGRAINS due to the sleepless nite!
but shld be fine ah!

SOON i will upload more photos of OSCHOOL MOVING OUT + RELIEZ! hahah

TODAY Christmas glad dat i have some plans!
meeting BOHAN den maybe goin over JOEY's place for some celebration!

2008-12-23T18:38:00.002+08:00

THIS IS BAD!
gosh i m FREAKING SICK now!
cough until my throat bleeds!
my chest feel damn uncomfortable
and worst FEVER!
my head is SPINNING!

waiting for my dad to be free to sent me off to the doctor!
ARGH!!!!

2008-12-21T19:54:00.002+08:00

ITS ALL ABOUT TIME!
well time past fast actually,
OTCW done!
will blog about it more wen i got the photos!

cant go for dance camp coz i m freaking SICK again, i injured my right leg & i got blisters on my right feet! NICE!
my grandpa feeling down! hopefully he will get better soon!

its been a freaking tiring week and also boredom!
BUBBY ALEX went KL for holiday so my late night bitching n smsing is pretty dead! haha
pretty sian la actually!
the PIG will be back tmr nite but i m sure he will be tired!

before he left, he sent me the song,
was pretty addicted to it coz of the best n pretty touching lyrics!

ANGEL

Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
And let it guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I want a be your zone
Tell me what to do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
Who will never promise to leave her man
Making vows to please her man

If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

Just like the moon
I'll step beside
And let your sun shine
While I follow behind
Cause baby what ya got
It is with all the props
With everything I'm not
Tell me what to do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
Who will never promise to leave her man
Making vows to please her man

[Angel lyrics on http://www.kovideo.net]If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

Tell me why there's so many good men
And the world's misunderstood
He's a dog, he's no good
I wish somebody would
Disrespect my man
You're gona have to come see me
I go hard for my baby
He's all that I need

So if you got a good one
Put your hands up,
Come on girl and stand up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, put your hands up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, stand up
Come on girl, and stand up

If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

PS: just wanna update for the sake of updating, i m freaking SICK & TIRED now!

2008-12-15T00:51:00.003+08:00

APPRECIATING!
BOHAN told me that my posts always emo kind!
either sad or angry!
today will be diff!!!!
wahahahh

YOU know who you are la!
seriously sometimes i know i m impatient n don understand situation well!
we kept on having misunderstandings n dumb quarrels.
but i really wanna THANK YOU for everything!
every single reaction you took..
thanks for all the care and concerns!
i really dunno how to THANK you coz u don wan me to thank you!
i will treasure watever i have, i wont forget you more den anything else!
i thank GOD for having a great buddy!

2008-12-12T08:19:00.006+08:00

OSCHOOL RECITAL 2008!
it was the biggest opportunity any dancer can get,
was to perform for OSCHOOL RECITAL!
though training time is on sunday n everyone have sacrifice "family day"
n during the few month training it clashes with FASTING MONTH which made some of us half dead!
but trainings usually were filled with laughters, jokes and everything
esp for my STREET JAZZ item, i dont know much people, so me usually with the DAO face just learn n leave, my purpose initially to go for street jazz item coz of FREDY! its like an achievement for me to be able to work with him, HUGE IDOL!!
as training past, at first we were super messy coz of this weakness it made us even closer, we bonded damn well, we disturbed each other and fool around alot!!
miss all the STREET JAZZ people alot!

i even asked REHAN to edit for me some photos!
coz it was a memorable experienced!

editted street jazz peeps!

oschoolers who made recital a success reggaeTPDE, we conquer itI KNOW I LOOK UGLY ON STAGE!!! wahhah

THOSE WHO CAME TO SUPPORT!
firstly thanks TPDE for coming down n cheering!
hope next recital they will be able to participate and go through this great experienced!

RAYVIN and his frens also!
though i dunno his frens
but yeah RAYVIN nv stops giving his support!
his breaking is getting much DOPER now!!!

FB PEEPS!
wah wen i was dancing on stage, right infront of me is LESNER!
wah thank god, can interact with part of the audience,
felt damn funny i dancing den saw his face smilling!
but no choice i m good at self high!! haha
nv take photo with him, ARGH!
but took with some of FB peeps who sat all the way up and SISTER REGINA too!! wahaha

to you guys! all the best for production!!
CONCLUSION!
THANKS OSCHOOL
for the great great experienced
thanks for making part of my dream came true,
i will continue working harder and be a better person and dancer!

TO RYAN & GIN,
thanks for the trust, my life changed coz of your guidance, your support and everything.

TO FREDY,
part of my dream came through wen i got into your item!
you've been one of my best dance idol for the past few yrs!
n you gave me the opportunity to be in your item wen i didnt attent the audition due to some stuffs!
NEXT is to dance next to you on the same stage is the BIGGEST DREAM i wish to achieve!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THE
STRENGTH, HEALTH, MINDSET
FOR ME TO KEEP MOVING ON AND

KEEP IMPROVING

2008-12-10T16:44:00.003+08:00

SICK!
i will post abt recital wen i got all the photos!
for now!
i m damn SICK!
i dunno how to explain how sick i m, but my body is in MAJOR PAIN!

2008-12-01T10:05:00.002+08:00

OPEN MY EYES WIDE!
had a long chat with BOHAN the CHINAMAN ytd nite!
until forgot to sleep also!
chatting with this lame idiot can be super funny
BUT he really make me realised something.
made me open my eyes even wider to see things clearly!
what to aspect from myself and what to aspect from the people around me!

we human cant have everyone to like us!
we cant satisfy wat ppl wan from us!
we cant aspect ppl to be there for us all the time!
we cant aspect ppl to return wat we aspect from them!

alot alot more!
i guess i felt so much better after realising things dat i hardly take into considerations!

currently i got affected by alot of things even the minor ones!
it made my life so difficult and so terrible..
i really hope to felt better and be myself,
i cant afford to screw up my term test due to the lack of mood to study,
lastly i cant afford to screw up my performance for OSCHOOL RECITAL next week!
my facial expressions my confident r all gone!
n i m not being me!

HOPE THINGS WILL GET BETTER!

thanks BOHAN, though u heard alot of things about me but u still ok with it,
thanks for accepting who i am!

2008-11-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

CHEERED UP!
haha well today KOK SHENG & BOHAN really cheered up my day!
hahaha KOK sent me video that make me go WAHAHHA!! coz its my current favourite song!
WOMANIZER!
haha like finally BRITNEY made a comeback!
just waiting for her to have some dope dance!

den thanks to BOHAN!
for his ever lameness n he bitched pretty well also!
thanks for editing my report!
n all those nonsense!

heres the vid KOK sent me!
the concept is cool!

gotta sleep early!
tmr 830am driving!! argh!
sianess

2008-11-30T02:39:00.004+08:00

SLEEPLESS NIGHT!
had a pretty fruitful study at airport today!
need some guidance on calculations part!
headed home alone

2008-11-28T17:11:00.003+08:00

NOBODY KNOWS!
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no

Nobody likes
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares

It's win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no

Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythem of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me

COME ON CHEER UP!!!

2008-11-27T16:20:00.003+08:00

I'M BEGGING
to YOU up there!
i m begging YOU to give me back my concentration n everything i need to get back on track!

LIFE had been pretty rough this few days!
problems collapsing right on me and i cant concentrate everything i wanna do.

SCOLDINGS from my driving instructor, due to my lack of coordination and attention!
no mood to do my PROJECT REPORT!
no motivation to study for term test!
no energy to at least dance abit!

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?
hmmmmmm

ROUGH ROUGH WEEK I HAD!
MAYBE I SHOULD REALLY TAKE A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING!

a long long bumpy road i have to overcome all by myself!

2008-11-26T22:02:00.004+08:00

IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME!
haiz
finally MP JUDGING is over!
hope for the best man!
luckily my group present n answer all questions well and fast!
THANKS TO CHANG SHENG & RAUF!
ESP TO CHANG SHENG'S FREN whom help us in 3/4 of our project!

well here r my projects dat been working for like 20weeks plus!

finally done!
NOW NEED CHIONG TERM TEST MAN!!
less den 2 weeks time!!! argh...
need score!!

anyway this week was pretty ROUGH for me!
projects and personnel issues,
hope i grew stronger from all this,
i will be possitive

*when will i get my true love? i found one but its nv perfect

2008-11-17T23:06:00.011+08:00

YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M ALIVE!
gosh finally i m back with tonnes of photos n updates!
really been busy!
will still be busy until dunno wen!

-PROJECT JUDGING ON WED
-RECITAL TRAINING
-TERM TEST
-RECITAL CONCERT
-FB & NRA CONCERT

so many things to do with so little time!
trying my best to manage my time well esp projects and studies!!!!

well here is some GREAT things dat happened sometime ago which i don have time to blog abt it!!

LETS START WITH~~~~~
DEC performance for RYAN'S DND event!
form a team of 6 with the juniors!
the event is not confirm yet!
hopefully confirm coz we can earn some money man!! haha
super broke la now!

STARBUCKS OUTING WITH THE BITCHES!!

rehan the turtle

rauf the tao ge's lover!

of coz me the super act cute cb ass!

alvin the winner of becky's competition!

FISH AND CO. RANDOM LUNCH WITH THE BITCHES!

super random friday we just feel like eating seafood! nice n cheap! thanks to KHAI!

AIRPORT STUDY FOR QUIZ!!
well this is our last sem in TP!
so even 5% coverage we still chiong to score man!!

HALLOWEEN OUTING!
this one was super interesting!
i went home around 12 plus from OSCHOOL training!
came online den suddenly got mass conversation!
was talking shit suddenly REHAN mention wan meet?
but all of us were broke!
so we planned to slack at the beach!
we decided go PASIR RIS beach!

Bubby ALEX wanted us to bring bolster!
ended up me him n becky brought!

BECKY drove n fetch REHAN! came my house and change car! coz bigger n can fit more ppl!
next we went fetch ALVIN n last ALEX!

so retarded ALEX standing at the traffic light hugging the bolster!

so BECKY drove us to downtown to get drinks!

settle at the PASIR RIS PARK!
the playground area!
play n play n play like DAMN LOST KIDS!
also kena screening by policemen!
but we ended up joking with them!

so fun nite ah!
the PHOTOS will tell the story!

our last shot at the beach!the screening by the poliemenplaying at the playgroundbecky tohthe turning thing dat made alvin felt sick for the whole nite

DEEPEVALI AT PULAU UBIN!
wah its was one of the most beautiful experienced!
the nature!
felt sosososo peaceful there!
no high rise buildings, no erp, no everything!

reached there around 1030am!
had our breakfast at REHAN'S grandparents stall!

den we rented bicycle for the whole day!
cycle the WHOLE ubin!
even to places we cant go!

cycle in the rain until we were damn wet and dirty with mud!

tonnes of JUMPING SHOTS!

went to search for mussels for our dinner!

OMG FREAKING WONDERFUL DAY!

PHOTOS PHOTOS!
ON OUR WAY THERE!!

BICYCLE RENTAL!
THE SUPER HIGH SHAKY TOWER!

HIKING AND JETTY!
CATCHING OF MUSSELS AND DINNER!

JUMPING SHOTS!!!
SLACK AND BACK HOME!!

LASTLY!
BUBBY ALEX BIRTHDAY!!
wah we planned for quite sometime!

FIRSTLY,
making of the bdae card! wah i was so inspired by how TRISHA made the bdae card!
so i made a motivation bdae card for ALEX to boost his confident up!!

the mess in my room! dunno how many days it takes to do the card man!

PRE PREPARATION FOR 12MIDNIGHT SURPRISE!
thanks to KY for his LAMENESS! for calling ALEX to come down n discuss about project!

it was as though it was my bdae!trying to cut the cake while waiting for 12 midnight!smile!!!

FINALLY 12 MIDNIGHT!
~
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~~~~
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~~~~~~ HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ALEX LUM SHANG SHUN!!!

THE REAL DAY!
went to have STEAMBOAT dinner with ALEX!
suppose to do CARNIVORE at vivo! but he is sicked! so yeah no heaty food!!!

also bought him a NIKE jacket!
ORANGE one of his favourite colour!!!!
haha

had a great nite!

CREDITS to REHAN THE TURTLE for all the damn GREAT photos he took!!!!

to BUBBY ALEX!
thanks for everything!

I M OFF!!
HOPEFULLY MORE UPDATES SOON!!!!!

*i know you are there but i feel you r too insensitive

2008-10-27T03:26:00.003+08:00

GREAT TIME!
had a great day ytd (saturday!!)
met KOK at PS den had our lunch at LONG JOHN!
den went shopping around! he wanted to get a shirt but sadly no size left!
den we continue shopping for presents but nth nice to us!
den headed down to FIRST TOA PAYOH SEC SCH to watch BUBBY ALEX playing soccer!
it was pretty good match for me! i learnt things from KOK from this match!

BUT ALEX back is like getting bad to worst!
hope everything is fined with him man!
ARGH

we stayed for first half coz gotta rush to PARKWAY to meet the bloody dumb couples!
me n KOK took 31 to PARKWAY, den we continue shopping for weird stuffs for DEX'S present!
den we had our dinner at hawker!
took bus to the chalet there n we still need to walk a damn long distance!
had a great time teasing the dumb couple! reached the chalet met alot of familiar faces den had some talk n laughed!
made our way home coz its getting late!
walk to PARKWAY this time!
DISASTER man! tired to the max!

den cab home with KOK!
well MR KOK! had a great time talking ,sharing and BITCHING with u!
hard to hang out due to ur SIP, more bitching session and now we can workout and swim tgt!
hahaha
n most importantly hope everything goes well for u!
TAKE CARE BUDDY!

the BIATCH KOKY!!

*where'd you go, i miss you so

2008-10-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

FREAKING SICK!
argh after having all the heaty food for the past few weeks!
now i m BLOODY HELL SICK AGAIN!

i wanna act tough!
i know i'm sick i still went to run the reservoir at 9am!
halfway running i cannot take it! sick for the whole day!
still went for ENGINE CONCERT!
after concert went dinner!
den FELL FREAKING SICK!
tummy hurts badly!
bad thing happen after the rest board the bus!
i was left alone n i VOMITED!
so paisei la!

HOPE I GET WELL COZ I WANNA RUN AGAIN TMR!

*are we getting apart? i dont feel it anymore, i wish u can be the one i know

2008-10-19T17:03:00.002+08:00

AGAINST ALL ODDS!

How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace,
When I'm standing taking every breath,
With you, ooohhh,
You're the only one who really knew me,
At all.

How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave,
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
If you're coming back to me it's against all odds,
And that's what I've got to face.

I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
So there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
When that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now,
Cause I'll be standing here,
And you coming back to me is against all odds,
And that's the chance I've got to take.

*BUBBY please get well soon ah! argh so not used not to have someone to talk!
u r just so different now which makes me so lost!
PLEASE COME BACK

2008-10-18T11:00:00.002+08:00

PLEASE PLEASE!
a proper update soon yeah!
after receiving all the photos from KHAI and REHAN!

LASTLY!
GET WELL SOON BUBBY!
TAKE CARE LOTS!

2008-10-01T11:22:00.005+08:00

LIKE A STAR!
had a great time the past few days!

SUNDAY 29 SEPT!
had recital training from 130pm!
lucky this time training was pretty short ended abt 545pm!
dat day we plan to have STEAMBOAT session as WEI QIANG is goin NS in a week time!
so we all gathered n had steamboat!
had really really great time laughing out ass off!
my table got WILL,WQ,KAIWEN,MEIQI,JOYCE,AH LEE.

ended up our NATIONAL GYMNAST WILL gave up first!
he like freaking noob, he don even take seafood but we managed to force him to eat half a prawn!

the best is MEIQI la, we all packed to leave the place she still eating!!!
let the photos tells the story!

MEIQI still eating!!!

we all r so full but MEIQI is so happy coz shes not full yet!
my couture full pose

after our lovely meal!
posing outside house of steamboat!

NEXT!
we went to watch the F1 race! wah everybody literally stand up n wait to watch lo!
damn cool sia the race!!! hahaha

after our F1 race!

we planned to have a movie outing! but no slots available!
so MEIQI started taking photos of us!!

IT STARTED WITH PRETTY BIRD'S EYE VIEW PHOTO!!

THEN, IT GOT WORST!! WE START TAKING UGLY PHOTOS!! OMG
we headed home den! BUT it was really a great nite man!! so fun!

MONDAY 30 SEPT!
went to sch to finish up project!!
den we had lab dinner at CHANGI VILLAGE MAGIC WOK!
the food wasnt really great!
but wats most impt is we had a great bitching session! n of coz laugh non stop!

on our way in the bus!!

MAKAN TIME!!

HEADED to dunno where around the boat area to chill out! the place was pretty romantic sia! haha

saw kittens sucking its mum's milk! so cute

our pit stop for the day!

SOME RANDOM PHOTOS BY REHAN!

ALEX LUMALVIN LAM

BEST PART OF THE WHOLE PART!
ky drove a lorry!
it was HELL FUN!

both rauf n alvin singing their ass off!!!

alvin had so much fun!!rehan, me & alex!

SERIOUSLY!
one of the best nite man!!
THANKS KY FOR THE RIDE!!! wooohooooo

*you gave me so much care n concern! thank you so much!

2008-09-28T10:50:00.003+08:00

NIGHT LIFE!
once in a while having a night life i pretty great man!
of coz there should be great ppl around you!

apart from the bad day i had ytd! i decided to meet JEAN,RAHIM,DANNY AND TIMOTHY after i break fast!
we where sitting in PS mac n talk abt life,
we left for FOODCOURT to get our favourite snacks while waiting for PANGYANG to finish his training!
den we walked all the way to CLARKE QUAY!
so the F1 thing dat is goin on seems damn fun man!
should have not reject my aunt invitation of goin to watch for free!! argh
well reach CLARKE QUAY the environment we had was wanna open circle n dance our asses off! but theres only 6 of us so we decided to walk around again,
AGAIN we settled down at mac coz PANGYANG is hungry!
talk n talk n talk
we headed back to the place n enjoy yet pretty feel uncomfortable due to the hot atmosphere at everyone is smoking there!
knowing the train gonna end late we left the place near 1am!
hahah
i gotta walk home from interchange!
gosh damn scary sia!
reached home, wash up den talk to ALEX until i fall dead asleep!!
hahah.

today i gonna have great night life again with TPDE peeps!
STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT!

*i never fall for someone like you

2008-09-27T18:34:00.003+08:00

BOILING POINT!
i dunno how to explain this feelings, at home the only person i can talk to is my mum,
but its getting bloody shitty when i don even talk much at home, i do my own things like stoning,chatting or watch vids alone in my room! i don even like to create a BIG HUUHAA i rather be alone den having tentions at home!

even wen i m alone, even wen i don even talk to anyone!
my dad still finding fault at me?
SERIOUSLY this is getting ridiculous!
he wan me to respect n greet my STEP ELDER BROTHER wen he is in the house!

FIRSTLY!
i don even come out of my room! its either i go to sch or i m in my room all the while!
wen i go out of the room its time for me to break fast!
so wats his actual problem?
does my STEP ELDER BROTHER even respect me?
does he even talk to me wen he came to the house?
HELLO this is my house?
ur mum divorced my dad n my mum don even steal our dad from ur mum!
n u r coming to MY FAMILY house, i think its u r the one who need to respect US!
n not treating like UR FAMILY house!

though i have this issue with u? do i go up to u n say it?
NO!!!! i do my own thing n u do ur thing!
its good dat u feel comfortable being in this house!
DEN y tell my DAD i don greet u?
R U SOME KIND OF SR NATHAN where i need to greet?

OMFG!!!!!
n worst my mum can call me ask me y i nv greet wen i m outside dancing?
WTF! n my dad can count how my time i nv greet him!

WORST!
is dat this FUCKING bitches only see my attitude infront of their eyes, n they don see it behind them! wen i see my STEP ELDER BROTHER outside, if i got issues with him i just fuck him off n try to avoid! BUT I DIDNT!

I SHOUTED HIS NAME GO TOWARDS HIM N GREET HIM PLUS! I SHAKE HIS HAND N KISS IT!

does anyone of this BITCHES see my reaction?
all u BITCHES see is me who gave attitude problem and direspect everyone around me!

this is the reason i hate to stay at home so much!
watever things i do is wrong!
but my brother shouted and disrespect my maid nobody see!
see also don do anything!
HELLO a maid is still a human, shes still older den US!
we pay her to take care of grandfather and do housework!
WE DON PAY HER TO SHOUT AT HER!!!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANKS ALEX FOR EVERYTHING!

2008-09-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

CLOUD NINE!

IT FEELS SO GREAT WHEN SOMEONE GAVE SO MUCH CARE AND CONCERN!
RAAZMY IS HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! lolx RETARDED!

recital training was great but its was hell for me!
due to fasting month n i cant drink at all n training start from 130 to 630pm!
it was really hell, i nearly wanted to just give up n drink water!
but keep on enduring n keep telling myself "time to break fast is real soon" hahaha
well i managed to endure haha!

FREDY's choreo for street jazz is DOPE!
gosh i actually felt so free dancing his item!
REGGAE was killer coz i m half dead! but i will get familiarise with it n do well in it.

after training i headed to ps with BADD, ROYSTON, AH LEE, SAM.
had our dinner! i didnt eat much but i drank really alot, 1 big surlpee and 2 snapple.
FULL TO THE MAX but still thirsty!
soon PANGYANG & JEAN joined us, we ended up talking n bitching for the whole nite!
omg its so great sharing thoughts! hahah I LOVIN IT!
den JEAN saw KOK SHENG n told me, i was total shocked la! haven seen dat KOK for months, suppose to meet up but right now he is like so busy with his work, talked to him awhile den i m back to my table for more bitching session!

nearly 10 and we headed home!!
on the way talk abt NS life with PY and ROYSTON, n now i m really worry abt NS life!
just hope for the best man!

around 130am ALEX smsed me said dat he is backed home from fishing trip! i was stun actually coz i tot he will be back on MONDAY! but yeah he is backed home! so now more chatting session, haha

THANKS TO DEREK FOR THE BIG BIG PINK SHIRT!
he like know me well! meet up soon IRON MAN!

*i'm waiting for you

2008-09-20T12:01:00.003+08:00

UNLUCKY SATURDAYS!
gosh! why? do i need to go outram every saturday morning!
got so many days in a week but SATURDAY?
been missing from dance like 2 weeks already, i am seriously rotting and my bones are like breaking apart!
today actually plan to cabot!
coz i find a way to runaway from the meetings, but in the end CANT!
all thanks to KELVIN who went to call the supervisor and he came down to check on our work!
felt so sad and bad cant go for dance, cant bitch and laugh around! URGH!

well, ALEX gone for a 3 days fishing trip in Malaysia with his friends!
which means i'm gonna be bloody bored rotting in front of the comp.
LUCKILY! AZLINA gave me FULL HOUSE dvd for me to watch, at least i got something to do.
Hope ALEX have a fruitful trip coz he complaint he is not really that close to the people there!

TMR! recital training, i have been practicing that much, only marking out steps for STREET JAZZ! but for reggae i actually forgot everything, guess tmr gonna recap with the rest!

10 MORE DAYS TO HARI RAYA!
not looking for HARI RAYA! but looking forward to tonnes of plans like i workout, cooking, cycling and of coz late night outings!

*you were the one but the chemistry wasnt there! how to built?

2008-09-17T12:04:00.002+08:00

MAJOR IMPRESSIVE!
i was actually browsing through youtube for CIRQUE DU SOLEIL vids!
den i came across this hand-balancing clip by this young china guy is i m not wrong!
WHOA! he is really super majorly powerful!

shared this clip to some friends in lab!
some point we were laughing but well SALUTES to this young boy!!!
CHINA really produce great n talented people!

OK i m off to school!!! woooohoooooo

*you knew i m gonna miss u every second

2008-09-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

SICK!
suppose go sch n meet the labmates for a reservoir run,
but sad to say i fall sick, gosh at this very time.

i had a nap in the afternoon but my condition just got a little worst,
temperature reached 38.1 degree!
n my back hurts terribly, DAMN!
gotta rest alot n hopefully tmr i will be fine!!!

*you are just sososososo different!

2008-09-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

LUCKY

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

*every heartbeat speaks your name

2008-09-02T12:25:00.003+08:00

FIRST DAY!
it was the first day of FASTING MONTH and also first day of HOLIDAY!
time pass damn bloody fast coz i woke up like noon coz i slept like damn damn early in the morning!
today felt damn short coz after i woke up from my wonderful sleep i went online chat here n there den went to school to meet the labmates.
after dat we went to play tennis around 4pm,
gosh i dunno dat tennis is like so freaking hard to play,
damn bloody noob, watch tv seems so cool but wen i play its so hard to control the ball.
but it was damn fun coz we are not tired of the match we get tired of picking up the balls.
so around 630pm i went back home with REHAN den break fast!

i don feel hungry at all, but i still wan eat,
so i sat down at the dining table but gosh the rice my maid cook losses my appetite of eating,
so i just make milo for myself den ate some bread!

the night passes slower den the day,
i felt pretty bored during the nite actually,
luckily now during midnight time i got ALEX to talk until morning!
really really change my whole nite of boredom.
thanks alot dude!

oh well i got vid to share, PANGYANG sent me,
i m so loving it,

COOL HOR!!! hahahaha
i LIIIKKKKKEEEEEEEEE!!

*i never knew you were so perfect

2008-08-30T20:58:00.005+08:00

GET WELL SOON GRANDPA!
finally my grandpa came back home after 2 weeks in hospital and a week at my uncle's place!
he broke his knee while climbing a rambutan tree in my house in malaysia!
imagine how strong he is at the age of 84yrs old!
n becoz of dat fall he seems very weak n not so energetic like before!
i felt damn sad seeing him on crutches and wheelchair,
i just wan him to be very healthy n be able to walk around n be the strongest n healthiest elderly around!
he doesnt even have any illness, argh
been wanting to go home early nowadays so i can talk to him coz he seems very lonely,
my parents r busy working, my brothers r busy with their own life too n my grandpa is not really comfortable yet with the new maid.
he cant do much due to the fall, so all he can do is sit down watch tv or on bed staring at nothing.
well hope time flies fast n he will overcome all this n be himself again!

FRIDAY 29TH AUGUST!
well i started goin to sch real early den i left to opp sch with nirej to collect rauf's birthday cake!
gave him a birthday surprise!
since it was our last day of SIP we took a workcell photo.
honestly this SIP period is the best period i had in my poly life!
its not abt the project, its abt the bond we had between the workcell mates, helping one another not to get caught playing truant, watching them play soccer in work area, talk things out n seeing everyone chiong thier work! it had been a fun n enjoyable life, making new frens n feel comfortable with one another, somehow i quite regret being so slack n keep on goin home, i don share much fun with the rest of them.

after the workcell photo we made our way to paya lebar to watch the RSAF open house!
omg at first it was quite fun playing with the workcell mates but after 1 or 2 hrs of walking my legs felt freaking tired n all i can think of is go home n sleep! goodness!
lucky REHAN was there to take photos, i got high wenever i see camera! wahahha
wen back to sch at 430pm den me alvin n the gang played some DAIDEE den arounf 530pm i headed to bugis to meet URBAN STANCE! after 1 week long, miss them to the max!

we had steamboat, we ate like nobody business we laugh as if it was our home!!
we had so much fun!
after our steamboat we headed down to bugis arcade!
we played some games dat r super funny, we spend near 20 bucks on dat game!
we headed down to bras basah mac to chat n eat ice cream,
den we headed home!
super tiring but i cant fall asleep!
ended up talking to ALEX until near 3am den i slept!

SATURDAY 30 AUGUST!
headed to sch to teach the juniors some stuffs, den celebrated AH LEE'S birthday, slack around, play DAIDEE with some of them den BEI BEI sent me home!
rest at home, talk to my grandpa den help my maid with housework dats all i had today!

*i wanna know u better

2008-08-27T21:06:00.001+08:00

SORRY SORRY!
omg i haven been updating for like a month!
really damn sorry coz i m way to busy and tired to update!
i cant remember everything that happen but some cool events i will update here!!!

START with TPSU AGM!
i gotta perform,
though our energy sucks but the crowd was pretty good!! lolx

next will be my class BBQ
at lewis's place! damn damn happening n fun actually!
did alot of crazy things like sexy shots for our calender!

hahah i know its pretty annoying! thats wen all boys meet up! we try something retarded!!

NATIONAL DAY WITH TPDE!
well we had like a pot luck party at PASIR RIS park!
though like 15 ppl attend, we had tonnes of fun!
lots of irritating games, we headed down to burger king and ehub to slack until late!
overall it was a fun outing!

SUNTEC DANCE!
well so glad that i could work with my juniors,
we went to compete as the all guys team,
my main aim for this competition is to work well with my juniors!

though we nv get into finals but still we had lots of fun together, learning new things from each other.

all the best to INDEPENDENT CREW AND REVOGUE IN FINALS!
we TPDE gonna support u guys, n do make TPDE proud!!!

SIP ENDING!
in 2 days time SIP gonna end!
finally i will have my 10 hours of more sleep!
19 bloody weeks of waking up early!
but still i will go to sch almost daily to hang around with the frens i made in there!
it was freaking fun!
without these ppl in the workcell, SIP is gonna be hell!
the reason i go to sch daily is not to finish the project but to hang around with the people inside!
having a workcell but it look like home! we brought our own pillows to take a nap, he create boundary to play soccer inside! we created SLOGAN in case the teachers coming inside!
tonnes of fun!

LASTLY!
welcoming my new family member! haha
finally my mum decided to have a maid at home!
to take care of my grandpa as well as the house!
n my maid is pretty good at cooking! wooohooooooo
shes more like a sister to us!

*19 weeks of crush

2008-07-28T09:15:00.013+08:00

OUR DREAMS DO COME TRUE!

finally DREAMS ended!
whoa its like really an eye opener and i really believe in miracles!
all the rehearsals were damn bad!
stage was bad DANCERS were freaking laid back n don have the sense of urgency!
everything was in rush!
cocked up here n there!
till the very day itself RYAN came to help to change the whole concert! we dancers got no choice but to adapt to the changes!
me & ROYSTON were the emcee for the event!
i was damn damn scared, during the rehearsals i don even know wat m i talking!
all my words i mumble it up! i kept on shouting FARK!!!!!
so damn irritated!
luckily GIN was there to help me out, say this n dat!

this concert i don even put any form of make up! coz i really got no time!
so wore a cap instead!

audience start coming in!
we dancers at the back were freaking freaking scared!

show start and the video wasnt playing!
we were like praying n praying so the video will be played!
its like 2 mins of blank stage n THANKS to the audience who kept on cheering, omg
such a DOPE audience!

i felt so relieve wen me & royston started the show! both of us as usual the bimbos!

the show unexpectedly went pretty well, all dancers seems enjoying themselves,
i myself enjoyed myself throughout the whole event!
esp wen the audience nv stop cheering!

i even cried on stage while i m dancing with LORENCIA! its like a huge opportunity to dance with a professional dancer! n i was given the opportunity so make use of it, shes been guiding me all along! don rush don rush don rush! she kept on mentioning me just grab just grab, she rather i grab den we fall on stage again! n the item went pretty well, i do forget steps but the first ever time we connected really well! n the second song just made me cried like a dog! lolx..

finally finale song!
felt so good seeing everyone so enthu, shouting n cheering our asses off!

SHOW end! went down to meet all my frens who came to support!

people like DEREK, RAYVIN, NRA, FB, SP, SMU, TPSU, AARON & CHERYL, WILSON for helping with photo taking, OSCHOOL peeps!
OMG too many to mention but thanks everyone who came to support n being such a DOPE audience!

now time for further improvement!
getting out of my comfort zone which i wanna get out long time ago but i just cant help it, but for SUNTEC i will get out!
trying to adapt RAHIM'S style! hahah
BREAKTHROUGH! hahahaha

NEXT will be SUNTEC COMPETITION!
catch URBAN STANCE! REVOGUE & INDEPENDENT CREW! wooohooooo
so FUN, but not time!

2008-07-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

SINGAPORE MIA MICHAELS!
i don even know how to explain wat i felt during modern dance training ytd!
it was so freaking fun!
firstly RYAN was damn damn high! he made us do some routine which we learn quite alot from the feel!
he taught us the priorities of DANCE!
MUSIC=STYLE=CHOREOGRAPHY! it was simply great as everyday i learn new things and also explore new areas in dance! haha

den proceed to routine! well techniques i know i suck!
but RYAN is simply BRILLIANT! i felt so free doin his routine!
its like watching youtube videos n admiring MIA MICHAEL'S choreo!
i think singapore is pretty fortunate to have a DANCER/CHOREOGRAPHER like RYAN!
how i wish all of the TPDE modern dancers can perform dat piece for our DREAMS piece!

even after the class ended i feel like continuing dancing n hoping ryan could finish the whole song! hahaha!

I FELT SO GREAT YESTERDAY!
DANCE=EXPRESS=FREE=HAPPINESS!!!!!

our MR BRILLIANT!

2008-07-15T05:39:00.004+08:00

I'M FALLIN OUT.....!
i wonder whose at fault?
sometimes i hate to be home early coz i really fucking hate to face all these nonsense stuffs dat happen at home, dats y i usually wanna go home late, so wen i reached home everyone is asleep n i can rest in peace!
but i aint dat selfish!
every single day, i had a tiring day in school, like one freaking long day of SIP den sometimes dance, and i felt dat i miss home n spending time with my family n brothers, sometimes i know i goin to be late for home, i sneaked out of my SIP go to my mum shop and at least spend a few hours there n chatted with her!
BUT DOES SHE EVEN REALIZE MY CONCERN?
wen i reached home early, i m so looking forward to have home cooked food, or even sit down infront of the TV with everyone n just randomly chat or sometimes laugh at each other?

BUT usually wen i got home early, my brother n i always got scoldings! like almost everyday we got scoldings! i understand they r tired of working the whole day, but i feel dats not a reason for u to come home to throw ur temper at us? its freaking unfair!

my brothers and i know sometime its our own fault for not cleaning up the dishes after we used but after all most of the time we did it? we got our grandfather who never stops nagging at us everyday! its really very annoying, n this had happen n nobody dares to say a word like 2 yrs ago! staying n home n facing n hearing all this nags r FUCKING SHIT enough for me!

BUT YESTERDAY WAS DIFFERENT!
i went home early, so happy dat i finished the paper work my mum asked me to do! once i opened my house door, i felt so great coz i smelled home cooked food n seriously my mum cooks like once or twice a month only! i faster open my boots n rushed to the kitchen to greet my mum! i entered the kitchen "BANG" both my parents SCOLD N SCOLD N SCOLD me without letting me say any word! they were scolding me dat i cooked at home n left the dirty dishes, they scolded me for putting my dirty laundry in the basket den my grandfather have to washed it! n they even mention dat i treat the house like a freaking HOTEL!

wen i heard all this, i don even wan to argue or wat! my heart totally sank, all my freaking missed my family feelings, looking forward to eat all GONE!
i told my dad i nv want my grandfather to wash my clothes coz usually i washed myself n hang it myself! but its my grandfather is the one who reminded me not to leave my dirty laundry on the floor in my room, he wants me to put in basket so he can wash! but i still don wan to bother him coz i know he is old enough, before i go to school i packed my dirty laundry in the basket den since my brother nv go to sch, i told him to put the laundry in the kitchen so wen i got home i can wash it myself, BUT watever i told my dad abt this HE JUST WOULDNT WANT TO LISTEN!
n scolded me for letting my grandfather washed my laundry, so i asked him WHO HAS BEEN THE WHILE WASHING URS N MY MUM LAUNDRY? isnt it my grandfather? so he got very angry, he said both my of them work to find money for all of us? so its ok for my grandfather washes their laundry! i was so FUCKED UP wen i heard this, so dat means u work n give us money u can take advantage of my grandfather to do the DIRTY job n be like a maid at home? both me n my dad nv wanna lose in quarrell! i don wan to further this stupid arguments! i said sorry to him n wanna close my door but he refuses he kept on pushing my door n wan me to understand the situation! like fucking hell i wanna care abt the damn situation! since u think wat u do is right n never felt u did mistakes den wat can i do! all i ask I WANNA BE ALONE!

my mum came n hug me coz i couldnt stop tearing coz i was so so fucked up abt all these things dat happened! but all of them never understand how we felt! they always think dat they go to work n assume dat they r more tired den those who goes to school! its like we go to school just to study n do nothing else! BUT THEY WERE WRONG! sometimes it can be really tiring, rushing over projects n meeting datelines! but which parents understand?

i cried for the whole night thinking of wat to do next! i don wan to burden anyone anymore, i don wan to cause all this stupid tentions at home anymore, HOW I WISH I CAN JUST GO UP TO MY 17TH STOREY HIGH FLAT N JUST JUMP DOWN, N DATS IT I WOULDNT EVER FACE ALL THESE NONSENSE ANYMORE!

i tried to text some of my frens but i don really share of wat i m goin thru! n i dunno whether they would understand! so i just talk to myself n force myself to cool down, its really hard coz my heart really beats freaking fast i even bite myself so i can feel the pain!

i think its time for me to be SELFISH n fuck care wat my parents feel, i rather go home late den goin home early hoping to eat home cooked food or even looking forward to be with ur family! COZ PARENTS NV UNDERSTAND! i rather waste my money on outside food dat eating at home! i really hate the arguments coz i think a home shld be a peaceful one den a hell one, since my parents kept on scolding us coz they r tired of receiving complains from my grandfather, den i rather not be home, coz it doesnt feels like a HOME to me!

TO ALL PARENTS OUT THERE!
i hope u people freaking concerned about how ur child/children feels! we don go to school to fuck around! we r tired in our own way, our brains sometimes feel like exploding! so wenever ur child/children is backed home let them cool down, rest den if u wanna scold, scold in a proper way, dont think dat u got the authority to scold as u feel dat u r more superior u can just scold ur child/children like how u scold ur dog! we got feelings too we feel affected too! if u wan scold theres alot of way u can scold, discuss wats the actual problem n how to solve it! don keep on throwing ur temper n never think dat every human made mistakes! u urself make mistakes! so instead of creating tensions n making a HOME like a hell, do have proper FAMILY TALK! ur child/children r not DOGS! all of us got things to do, all of us r stressed in out own way!

*nobody knows how much hurt it causes me, nobody knows how affected i m, nobody knows all the while i m not the loud raazmy u guys seen outside! in me its full of tears n frustration!

2008-07-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

ITS PRICELESS!
apart from famly i feel friends r really PRICELESS to me!
friends are one of the group of people who stays forever and the people can you can seek wen u r need of someone to talk to or to bitch around n have fun together!

but in any occasion nv ever assume things from wat u see n just judge it the way it looks!
i made a mistake that i assume dat my own buddy is avoiding me, from there i feel very weird wen we came face to face, slowly both of us tried to avoid each other n really hide from each other! i felt total awkwardness i came to think n feel that is if i treasure friends around me furthermore a good fren i shld do soemthing to make this frenship a good wat!

well i just myself down n initiated dat both of us meet n catch up with each other!
it feels much better den i expected, i felt much better after thrashing things out.

as for u my buddy! i really feel damn sad of wat u r goin through now! i m trying my best to help but the one who felt the most impact is you, n i hope u r strong enough to handle it,please don do stupid things like u did b4! hmmmm

i will always be there wen u need me n i will contact u more n we shld bitch more often! hehez!
PROMISE!

*i felt really lost most of the times but i still care

2008-07-08T10:48:00.011+08:00

2008-07-02T09:15:00.003+08:00

CHASING DREAM BUT.....!
well somehow i decided to be determine n trying the very best to endure n workout every single day!
after wat GIN had said abt the core muscle n the motivation dat DEREK had given me to start losing weight n also improve on my tone!
i tried it for a few days but this stupid thing happen!

i started out with running the reservoir doin tonnes of crunches n leg lifts
n also cut down on carbo n eat healthy food!
i had achieve most of it n adapting to this situation!

but ytd i found out dat my lower body was in pain!
after having my light dinner at 85 market with JOSHUA N WENDA!
i had to walked back home but it took me freaking half and hour to reach my house whereas usually i took less den 5 mins to walk back home!

my lower body was total pain dat i cant even walk properly, i had to stop like here n there to release the pain, i finally reached home n wanted to go n bathe, so i was wondering y my backbone was in such pain!
i bend down n feel my backbone!
i was quite shocked dat my left backbone was sticking out!
its like theres a lump at the left hand side of my backbone!
well this time round i cant hide from my parents, so i inform my mum n asked her to feel the bone sticking out, she was quite shock also, n she just asked me to rest n lye on the floor!

i told my dad den he told me to stop dancing! he gave me medication to rub my back n painkillers!

BUT! sorry to my parents i cant bare to stop dancing but i will take good care of my body! LOLX!
soon i will go for body checkup, n see how it goes!

ANYWAY i just updated my blog song!
very very nice,
might be using this song for LOREN n my item for DREAMS!

Been sittin' thinkin' bout you and I
And wonderin why we're not getting along
So frustrated cause, what we had was a happy home.
I don't know what the situation is
But I can tell in the way we kiss
We don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
You gotta show me that you want me to stay don't turn & walk away

Baby I'm slowly fallin' out... of love with you
I don't know what to do, how did we end up here this way what are we gonna do? I'm slowly
Fallin' out... baby we're trippin' on silly things
Boy I need you to meet me halfway, if you want me to be with you...

I remember when, I'd be with my friends
You checked on me and made time to call
But how things have changed, now I don't hear from you at all.
Yeahh yeah yeah

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
You gotta show me that you want me to stay don't turn & walk away

Baby I'm slowly fallin' out... of love with you
I don't know what to do, how did we end up here this way what are we gonna do? I'm slowly
Fallin' out... baby we're trippin' on silly things
Boy I need you to meet me halfway, if you want me to be with you...

Don't let your pride get in
The way, for something we worked so
Hard don't throw it away
I been tryin make you see that everything
You need is right here with me

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
You gotta show me that you want me to stay don't turn & walk away don't turn and walk away...

Baby I'm slowly fallin' out... of love with you
I don't know what to do, how did we end up here this way what are we gonna do? I'm slowly
Fallin' out... baby we're trippin' on silly things
Boy I need you to meet me halfway, if you want me to be with you...

Slowly fallin'
Slowly fallin'

How did we end up here this way?
Ooooo

Slowly fallin'
Slowly fallin'

How did we end up here this way?
Oooooo

*where we end up

2008-06-29T10:56:00.004+08:00

2 VAINPOTS MET!
hahahah well goin out with DEREK is always very very unpredictable!
we will just stupid n crazy things!
from putting hair extentions guess wat we did on FRIDAY!

met him at 1130am!
but i was late due to some work in the workshop so he made his way to TM first!
so i cab down n find him!
we went to get some PLANTS for his fish tank! like DEREK DOIN A FISH TANK! like freaking random of him!
after getting the plants we suddenly got cravings for ice cream! not suppose to eat actually but HECK! we got ourselves 2 CHOCOCONES each!
den went to wait for shuttle bus to IKEA!
i never know his intention of IKEA, tot of having lunch there n just shop around!
BUT HE WAS SEARCHING FOR A BED!
like wth rite! damn freaking random!
he even prepare a shopping list to get things to redecorate his room!
so our main piority dat day was to get a BED!
look around for beds! got 1 dat is nice but he wants to explore more so we somehow decided to go COURTS n find one!
but before we go COURTS! we went to eat the famous HOTDOGS!
we shared a cup of drink n we got 4 HOTDOGS! by the time no need eat lunch alr, damn full!
den again we bought ICE CREAM again! hahh FAT FAT FAT!

wen over to COURTS,
walk n walk n walk, finally he made his decision to get the bed from there!
he even bought a new mattress, hahah
he spent near 600 bucks for a queen size bed n a mattress!

den we cab to his place for him to place the plants in the tank,
took bus 8 to school n headed down to BIZ PARK for mocha session!
stayed there for soemtime n talk nonsense!
den went back to workcell n wait till the day end!

SERIOUSLY!
i never knew i can be close to this DEREK! honestly i hated him to the max wen i first came to TP! n now we like pretty close n somehow got this VAIN mindset!
even chat we WEBCAM to show how ugly we r with HEADBANDS n pushing our hair all the way to the back! hahhah FREAKING RANDOM!
but still fun n crazy!

SATURDAY 28 JUNE!
had dance in the morning but GIN was a late!
so we started late!
so many things happen will elaborate more in the next post where i will be more serious with wat i gonna say!

suppose to meet my classmates at 3 to get our bbq stuffs but due to some circumtances i met them at 6plus instead n they bought all the bbq food!
so SORRY for dat!
had bbq with them at LEWIS'S house at WHITEWATERS condo which is as PASIR RIS!
so fun!
went swimming too n we did tonnes of crazy things like taking PORN photos n plan to do a calender! hahah
left the place at around 11 plus!

tonnes of photos will be uploaded wen our dearest shazni finish editting it! lolx

*i feel lost, where is my love?